Diary Entry 24 - Giants, Elder Gods and the Kitchen Sink, Oh My!

 

Diary Entry 24 - Giants, Elder Gods and the Kitchen Sink, Oh My!

I was watching a tarot reading on YouTube, as I am prone to do when I am home. I don’t watch tv anymore so I have to find a way to entertain myself. In this reading, the person asked a question to the cards: “What does your person think of you?” I thought that was a great question that I definitely wanted the answer to. So I posed this question to Mr. Pendulum. The problem with this question was that I wasn’t specific enough in my intention. I thought I would get information about what Jax thought of me and instead what I got was a whole slew of people plus the kitchen sink. Here is what my person (or persons) thinks of me:

• Jax thinks I'm his destiny

• Deacon is thankful

• Andra thinks I am just good enough to get into the kingdom of God

• Vesta has a similar thought as Andra but added she was dealing with the prophecy about the kingdom

• Mom welcomes my energy

• Deacon/Limon (not sure why they are making this a separate entry) thinks I am a giant responsibility

• Apollo feels Jax and I are open to each other

• Phoebe, grandmother of Apollo, protects me

• Uranus, primordial father god of the Titans sometimes called Father Sky thinks Jax is not good enough for me.

• Truth Incarnate has great respect for me

• Giants welcome me home.

  
  

My first thought was “Giants? There are giants?” I know, I am a dork. The funny thing about Phoebe showing up in this list was that I had pulled her card a day or two earlier. A few years ago I created four oracle decks that I just laminated and used for myself. Two of these decks were about these gods. My decks are called “Zeus and the Twelve Olympians” and “The Titans: The Elder Gods.” I have combined these two decks into one since it is just for me and is fun. 

The thing about Phoebe and Uranus showing up, I think it is a big deal. If these two were rock stars they would be like the Rolling Stones or the Beatles. Hard to believe these two primordial god figures wanted to tell me anything. They said I am a favorite of the Gods. I am assuming they mean Pallas since I am not sure these rock stars would give me the time of day otherwise.

Oh and on a side note, I figured out why I keep getting so many messages that elevate Deacon to me. Apparently, Pallas has a crush on Apollo. That does make some sort of odd sense since those two had to be close growing up.

So I am wondering, if Pallas is a favorite among the Gods, why has she practically been wiped away from mythology? Makes me think of that Egyptian Queen who was once a Pharaoh and how they systematically destroyed every depiction of her anywhere in Egypt. Pallas and this Egyptian Queen must have ticked off some important Deep State person in the past for them to go to so much trouble to erase them from history.

I wanted to briefly jump to a topic that sort of aligns with this. It’s about the Egyptian Gods. I was curious if any of these Gods were linked to me since so many Greek and Roman ones were. Plus, the first person I ever accidentally connected to was Thoth and he is an Egyptian God of learning and writing and said to have actually created languages. His only message to me was on repeat saying We Are All One.

Apparently, my wanting this information just sort of opened a Pandora’s box of craziness.I could probably create an entirely new story just about this stuff but I don’t want to get too far off topic. Somehow Vesta and Pallas “created” the Egyptian Gods through a process they called Kindred. They took bodies, I assume human bodies, and had what seemed like a two step process. Vesta created the character of the person and Pallas reanimated the body. I am getting a whole Frankenstein vibe off of this with tints of vampire mythology thrown in for a bit of an accent. These two had a helper who infused flower essences they used during this process named Saharah. Saharah is a giant and when I probed about her further it came out that she was the daughter of me and Jax. How that is possible I have no clue. One wonders if some of these stolen SRA children, the genetically altered ones, were sent back in time for nefarious purposes. Kinda giving me the shivers, not gonna lie.

Besides the fact that I have a giant as a kid, why in the heck would anyone create an entire pantheon of Egyptian Gods? What would be the purpose? Just to rule over Egypt? I’m confused. It’s a state I seem to live in these days. Even my friend Calliope is concerned about me. She reads this story too and gives me input. She says it is not healthy to keep talking about mom and the info I get about her. She says this is probably how I am processing my grief and I can agree with that. I do know mom is gone and do not hold tight to the idea she is coming back. Sometimes it is just nice to think fondly of your departed parent and want to infuse life into that memory. I am doing that through this story. Processing and redefining things. It may seem weird but it is how I operate. I write stuff down.

I was watching a YouTube video with two guys named Tom Numbers and Negative48. They were talking about a ripple effect they thought might happen in the timesteam. The idea is that there is a point where time veered off into a negative timeline. (think the alternate 1985 in Back to the Future). There is going to be a pivot point or turning point where something happens and it causes this big shift that alters the timeline. We will not not be thrust back to this point in history but we will live now as if that history kept going along the positive timeline. We may just suddenly wake up and our departed loved ones are alive and sitting next to us or that boyfriend that made a choice that separated you might now be your husband. There is no telling what might occur. It’s just a thought and I liked the idea of it. I think that time point is 1995 since I have so many things in my life that point back to that time period. Interesting stuff to think about.

Diary Entry 23 - Gods of Heaven

 

Diary Entry 23 - Gods of Heaven

The other night I received another message that mom isn’t dead. At first they told me she was in a place much like our house that had been custom made for her. Not sure why they would go to so much trouble. They were saying she was being kept company by clones who looked like me and dad. I want to know whose bright idea it was to do this forced Mom-cation. I heard she had a choice but this is a little much.

The last intel I received via Mr Pendulum was that she is now on Mars and both Deacon and Jax have been visiting her. Again, why? Why take her away from her family and let two relative strangers visit her. I am not comprehending this at all and want to throw this into the disinformation pile but I hesitate because I want this to be true.

This morning the message came through that they were making a home for her on Orion. I was a little miffed. Without me and dad? Apparently the fact that we were included was assumed. This place on Orion is called Heaven. Getting more intel on this now. And this is where all the Gods live. Earlier in the year I had gotten that they lived on Sirius but they claim that is “old ground.” Not sure what that means. Maybe the place isn’t viable for life any more. I get the word “desolation: when I think of it.

Had a bit of a mind twister today while I was at work. It said that a priest wanted to use me for a ritual but was denied. When I asked who this priest was, it named Deacon. Maybe my extraction of the thought form wasn’t as successful as I thought and this idea just freaked me out a bit. Exactly why would they want to do a ritual with me? Apparently it was Satan’s idea. Of course, it was. I asked why they wanted to use me and they said that it was because of the truth incarnate. No power was greater to him.

The person behind Mr. Pendulum says to me: Now you see your importance. Do I see? Not really. I do see that this is crazy stuff. I had to double protect myself to make sure I was getting the right information. Then I asked the most obvious question I could think of. Okay, if I am so important, why isn’t anyone around to help me. Mr Pendulum assured me that there are people around, I just don’t see them. 

What a truth incarnate I am. A blind truth incarnate. I asked for a hint of who was helping to protect me. Deacon. Really? The same Deacon who wants to sacrifice me during a ritual for Satan? Mr Pendulum assures me that he is only pretending. Okay, I can buy the double agent thing, I think. There is also a Troupe of Keepers keeping me safe. I do feel a bit better at this knowledge but not really. Still kinda freaked out, gotta be honest.

The tarot says I need to take something off of my story. I asked what it was. Limon Bros. Wow, these mob people can even get to my tarot deck and shake it down. Apparently, Deacon has a plan and this name in my story could usurp that plan. Come on, people. It’s just a story, right?

Diary Entry 22 - Floored & Baffled

 

Diary Entry 22 - Floored & Baffled

I got a message tonight that there is a prophecy that Apollo wrote somewhere about the Waters royalty legacy. Not sure where its written down but someone has it and is keeping it secret. Apollo also gave a copy of this prophecy to Rhea, who is his grandmother. Right after I learned this unique secret, then I hear that Vesta ate Rhea’s monad. I had to ask the question, what in the heck is a monad. They like to use these weird terms that I never seem to understand. I have to halt the message so I get a clear meaning about what they are trying to tell me.

A monad is someone’s true life force. I am not sure how you eat something like that but I figure this can’t be good. I asked if this means that the information she held in secret was something Vesta knows now. The answer that came back was yes. That’s unfortunate.

Mr. Pendulum says I am a star being turned into a person. Apparently this prophecy contains instructions on how to use me and Jax to regenerate the Gods. You may wonder how Apollo might know something like this, he is after all the God who is over all the oracles. I imagine this means he has prophetic power too. He is just more focused on his other cooler powers. The connection between me and Jax is really important and maybe this is why some people have been so adamant to keep us apart. I get that his abandonment of me was partly his job and wanting success and mostly his family whispering in his ear about how we weren’t meant to be.  In reality Jax and I balance each other. The regeneration heat of Pallas and the watery wall of past regrets of Jax put together somehow reanimate the God’s powers.  Don’t ask me how it works, I have no clue. 

Random tidbit: There are some people out there that raided body suits to pretend they are Gods. These bodysuits have some sort of other worldly power. This is just a random fact and seems out of place amidst the other truths here.

Sometimes things just pop into my head and I was wondering about Artemis, she is Apollo’s twin. You would think someone this important in Apollo’s life would be on the stage somewhere. It seems weird she hasn’t been mentioned much. I was curious. So I decided to ask the pendulum about it. The swinging divination device said that I was Artemis. Okay, that is just weird to me. Can you tell weird is my favorite word? Everything is weird. How is it possible that I am Hestia, Pallas and Artemis. It just doesn’t seem possible. What am I a triple goddess or something? But these three wouldn’t be put together in a normal myth.

The pendulum says that Limon Brothers turned me into a powerhouse. I am not really sure how that is possible. Are these Limon guys in the Deep State too? Are they descended from the priests and magicians who started all this? I am just floored and baffled. Why me?

I wanted to change the topic for a minute. Yesterday I mentioned how Deacon was manipulated by Satan and I wanted to expound on that a bit. This doesn’t mean Deacon is a bad person or is doing anything knowingly that is wrong. What I picked up was that during a time of weakness, and we all have these moments, he lost his faith. Since he is faith incarnate, this gave Satan and Vesta an in with him and they took advantage of it.

What happened was a weird type of thought form was created and inserted into him. It’s not like nanites or anything tech-like, but it is similar to that niggling little thought at the back of your brain that shoots down every good idea you have or gets you into that really blue mood that emotionally debilitates you.

I can’t imagine what happened with Deacon. But he is close to Mr. Trump in some way. Not sure how. But this invasive thought form is like a mole in the inner circle. He doesn’t call someone and tell them cool intel. It’s more like the Evil Queen is consulting her Magic Mirror like in Snow White.

I sent my suggestions to the White Hats about how to deal with it. It is a tool I sometimes use when I am overwhelmed with the energy of others. I wrap the energy, or in this instance, the thought form, in an energetic bubble. Then I open a portal to a black hole and shove the bubble inside, quickly closing it. This technique works really well for something like this.

(I have a bit of an update here. I went through the process of removing the thought form this morning which I feel was successful.)

I need to take a minute and talk about Legba, Papa Legba to some. I had a message a while back, I get a lot of those, don’t I? Perils of the job, I guess. The message was that Legba was also my father. You know, my father on earth, the one who doesn’t know he is Poseidon. I told you, I really need a map to track these things. This thing that Jax and I are supposed to do to bring back the God’s powers (I really think there is more to it than that, but I will let them tell me the story), it has to have a blessing. Legba stands at the spiritual crossroads as an intermediary between the seen and unseen. You need his permission or blessing to open the gate. And here is where Gates comes in again. Opening the gates. Is this Heaven’s gates? I did accidentally call them the Gods of Heaven a few chapters back. I have a feeling Heaven is a place, like a star or a planet that is currently inaccessible. Maybe the Greek and Roman Gods come from this planet, this place called Heaven. I don’t know but I thought I’d mention it. Seemed important. 

This morning I got the intel that Poseidon is the King of Heaven. Good to know.

Diary Entry 21 - Signs, Signs, Everywhere There Are Signs

Diary Entry 21 - Signs, Signs, Everywhere There Are Signs

I dreamed the other night about mom and grandma. I take this as a sign I need to pay attention to since I rarely dream of them ever. There was a reunion happening at this old rundown building. Apparently, it was my family but I didn’t recognize anyone. Plus, they were the most somber of folks. No one was talking to anyone. I saw my sister, Andra and her daughter, Kell. Kell just looked weird. I could tell it was her but she looked old and wrinkled and was wearing this outdated 1940’s green silk pants suit. Mr. Pendulum said she was a street walker. Figures. I spoke to them briefly and then moved upstairs where I found mom and grandma cooking the meal for everyone. Grandma would have to be 95 by now if she were alive, which she isn’t. Not sure why they were cooking. I wanted to talk to them but there were trash bags in the way. Not just one or two but there were so many they were stacked as tall as me. Then I went outside. As I was moving toward the door, six men dressed like the seven dwarfs walked by with various colored large hats. Number seven walked by as I was exiting. Are you telling me we are going to get into fairytales now? Someone outside was looking for a bartender and I guessed dwarf seven was their man. Not sure why. Then I was on the roof where I found a couple of trash bags filled with board games. The one called Sorry stood out to me most. I contemplated bringing all the games inside so maybe these people might smile and talk to one another. Eventually, I found my way to a table where there was an unplugged tv sitting at the end of it like a table decoration. It looked exactly like the old black and white one we still own but don’t use.

I am going to try and see if this dream has any meaning farther than the obvious. If I touch on the weird God references I have been getting lately this would say that I was connecting with some family Galactics, at least the female ones. Andra is Vesta/Hera, Mom is Minerva and Grandma is Helen of Troy. And in case you were wondering, yes, Helen of Troy is in the pantheon of gods. Weird, I know. I am going out on a limb here and saying I was in contact with death incarnate, wisdom incarnate and beauty incarnate. This was happening in an old building so I assume this is an old place I used to call home. Probably the body or mind I used as Pallas back in the day. This mind is rundown and unused. Not a lot of life has been infused in this mind. It’s like it is on pause back in time. I probably saw Snow White characters in order to tell me the time period. This story was first published in 1812. So I am surprised the house looks as good as it does. My grandma and mom are cooking and that could mean spellcrafting things. Maybe they are trying to regenerate or reanimate the family (or me since this is my mind) and that is why everyone is so solemn. They are stuck in a time loop. 

All the games have been boxed up and put away so they literally have had nothing to do for hundreds of years. The game that stood out was Sorry. So it seems they did this for my own good and are sorry about it. Somehow I got unplugged from the matrix and now I have incarnated into this life. Sweet. Mom and Grandma did something that made it possible for me to come into the soulmate cycle in order for Pallas to use her regeneration/resurrection power for a specific reason not mentioned in the dream.

Not sure if that is what it really means but that is how I am interpreting it for now.

Mr. Pendulum has been giving me a lot of disinformation lately. I have to shield up and ask again just to make sure I am getting the right intel. I know when I get crap like Hades/Satan is my twin flame and not Jax that the jig is up and I need to put my protection up again.

One of the things it has tried to tell me is that Helen of Troy was Deacon’s wife. And Paris, the guy she loved, was Deacon. Nope, that came out fabricated truth. I began to wonder why a lot of this intel was trying to boost Deacon up and make him look more important than he was, at least in my mind. I received the guidance that he is also truth incarnate but he is being manipulated. I am wondering if I already mentioned this but it is always good to review.

 

Diary Entry 20 - Brainstorms and Love Vibes

 

Diary Entry 20 - Brainstorms and Love Vibes

Pulled another Trump reading last night. Wasn’t my intention to do so. It just happened. The Emperor came flying out of the deck so I decided to do a celtic cross spread with it as the situation. The Emperor is a leader. Like an authority type of leader. This energy reader on YouTube calls this card the Burger King cause he always wants things his way. I gotta laugh at that. Sometimes the Emperor is me since it is also the card of Aries. I put my pendulum to it and got a no answer. Nope, not me. Hum. I ran through a list of names wondering who this could be referring to. I finally tried the last name I could think of. Trump. Big yes. Why? Why am I pulling Trump readings all of the sudden? I have a feeling it has something to do with the spellcast portal in my bedroom where the Powers That Be can see me. I guess they wanted a reading. Okay, let’s play. Time for a brainstorming session.

Apparently, Trump wants to talk to me. Again, I ask, why? I keep getting he is coming to talk to me and that just doesn’t seem realistic to me. I figure this portal thing is how he is going to do it. Probably safer. His team is wanting to offer a happily ever after type of thing to the world. They have been so oppressed for so long that everyone thinks that what we experience now is just normal. We don’t even know what normal means. 

These Legacy families have known some part of the truth for a long time, Truth, Inc, The Gates Family, Limon Brothers, who knows who else had this intel back then. Maybe Templars. They have been secreting this truth. What is coming in currently is what looks like ultimate fulfillment but it’s just an illusion, a show. We are really being betrayed. The ultimate fulfillment is the Devil in disguise.

 

In the near future we get the Hermit card. He is a guy who keeps to himself, likes solitude and learns a whole bunch of stuff. Then he brings that stuff out and shows it to the world. Sometimes I get this card as a star being. I’ve got a feeling this is Jax’s higher self, Northman or Triton. He is going to shine a light on things and bring about some sort of justice. They will do that by using a love vibration. This will bring stability over oppression. Then the Queen of Wands, aka me, will brainstorm with them. Doing that now. Then the Devil is overcome by an offering of love. This offering seems really important. Like it was some sort of unfulfilled destiny that was denied long ago. It will add a powerful element to things. 

A message will come showing how this vibration will be used. It has to do with moon cycles, sun cycles, and clockwise. This vibration will have to be guided in order to bring in peace. Maybe it is following the moon cycles or in conjunction with the moon cycles, I don’t know. But this vibration permeates everything on earth eventually and then a big Tower moment happens on earth. A sudden and swift change. This is what breaks the brainwashing. 

The people will no longer have regrets. Then the population of the world with one intention will cause a shift. I think some people will call it ascension. Not sure if that will be what they all think it is but there will be a dramatic shift and everyone will know about it. Then a Magician from the “family” will come forward. This is important to really break the cycle. The Magicians caused this in the beginning and will be what ends it too. This ending also has something to do with two people coming together. Two become one. This will reveal the true strength and the trump will sound. Wake up call, second chance, an announcement.

That was like a very involved reading and probably the most detail I have ever gotten from a celtic cross before. Wow, sounds intense, doesn’t it?

You know how yesterday I mentioned the name Gates in regards to Jax’s “Family” connections. There is also another name I have been getting for a while: Limon Brothers. You probably noticed I mentioned it in the reading above. I am not sure if I am spelling that name correctly. I hear the sound of LeeMan or LeeMon Brothers when I think of it. Now these people remind me of the mob. Totally getting that Godfather feeling with this bunch. I have been pulling cards that Jax is trying to get away from a Legacy type of family. The type of family that has deep roots and goes way back. I keep pulling cards that he is walking away from them, but I assume that would be a tough thing when dealing with people like this. I really do fear for his safety and I think he is in fear as well since the stress & worry and stabbed in the back cards keep popping up.

Another thing came up that I have been wondering about for awhile. It is about Triton and Apollo and who they are on earth right now. Apollo is Zeus’s son. Triton is Poseidon’s son. On earth Apollo is Poseidon’s son and Triton is Zeus’s son. Does that not bother anyone else? I got a message via Mr. Pendulum that my real mom, Rhea, (Zeus and Poseidon’s mother) took Poseidon’s son and gave him to Zeus. Either they were both switched at birth or there is something going on here that I can’t quite wrap my mind around. 

Remember how Mr. Pendulum wanted me to give Apollo characteristics like Poseidon? Now I know why. It is mind blowing how this stuff seems to work out in the end. I am just writing as I go along and you’d think none of this would resonate with earlier writings but it totally does.

I have another dream I want to tell you about and some stuff where Satan has been giving me the biggest bunch of disinformation I have gotten yet but I will leave that for my next post.

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Author’s note:

FYI, if anyone is interested in brainstorming with me about all these Greek and Roman gods and goddesses, I would like someone to bounce ideas off of. Send me an email at tonispywriter@gmail.com

Diary Entry 19 - All The Feels

 

Diary Entry 19 - All The Feels

I felt this heavy weight of discouragement this Sunday afternoon and it was almost crippling. It was the type of feeling you get when you want to give up and walk away from everything. It was a very depressing and soul crushing feeling. And I knew one thing for certain, this feeling wasn’t coming from me.

I drew a tarot reading on it just to be sure. This depressing feeling was coming from none other than Deacon. And that kind of surprised me. This guy is strong and happy and has it all together. Why would he be depressed? If he ever does read this story I want him to know something. If this idea rings true that Marcus and Deacon are really the same person, I would be honored to have him in my family and call him brother. In fact, I am not sure I could have concocted a better brother to have. It would be a blessing to me and my entire family. Of that much I am certain.

I am reminded of a post I saw on Facebook recently that depicted three popular actors, strong men who had it all together, and how none of them are with us any longer. They had this silent struggle within that brought them to their knees and eventually killed them all. No one knew what was going on inside them because they put a brave and happy face on for the world everyday while the turmoil inside bubbled to bursting.

One Source says via Mr. Pendulum that Deacon fights demons every day. He says Deacon is used to fighting. Really? That doesn’t seem like the best way to live. No wonder he lives his life to the fullest on the outside. Living life in striving mode can not be a fun way to live life. Fighting like this must be debilitating after a while. I am praying for him because it seems like the right thing to do when you have no control over a situation. That feeling of discouragement and dread wafting off of him hit me all the way across town. I guess my powers are ramping up some. I get the weird powers, detecting the awful feelings powers. 

I think this must be why I am getting these random pendulum messages from Satan. Yes, Vesta’s henchman. It’s like he is delivering breaking news and taking over the conversation like an annoying little twit. I am usually talking to One Source when this happens. He will spew things like, “Jax is not your twin flame, Hades/Satan is.” Ewe, yuck! That is never gonna happen, dude. Jax may not want me but at least I have comfort in knowing I have denied you, Just gross. This is when I put my psychic shields up again and get back to work.

Speaking of random transmissions, I had a dream about Jax the other night. This is the first time I have seen him in a dream in the now moment. I have had a couple of dreams where he looked like he did in the past. We were in a car and he was driving. I was looking at him through a very large rear view mirror so it was easy to see his face. His hair wasn’t as vibrant in color as it once had been and he needed a haircut. He told me he loved me, much in the same way he would have in the past. 

Since I was seeing this through a rear view mirror, I think this was me acknowledging that Jax did love me in the past. I felt like I was putting words into his mouth, since this was a reflection of the past and not now. I was hoping, I guess, that there would be feelings like this expressed to me. I did not tell him I loved him back because during the dream it felt like the current timeline and not the reflection I realize it was now.

I am not ready to say those three words to him yet. We would need to get to know each other again and see if we could even like the current versions of ourselves. I do love him, a part of me always will, but until we reconnect, saying those words wouldn't mean much.

I have been getting a bit about Jax’s “Family” connections. I don’t know if their last name is Gates or the foundation is called The Gates but the name Gates is in the title. Makes me think of pearly gates, like the type you hear about in Heaven. Wonder if there is a connection. I constantly get that there is a “group” that both Jax and Deacon are involved with that has something to do with saving the children of the world from the abuse that has been going on for so long on this planet. Mr. Pendulum has deemed it Truth, Inc. I am not a fan of the name but what can you do? I am just writing this as things come up and suddenly that is in my face.

Oh, and speaking of faces. I fell flat on my face on Saturday morning. It was as if me and the driveway had a boxing match and the driveway won. I look pretty impressive right now. As if I survived a real death match. I even had the whole spitting blood into the sink experience like a real boxer. My hand is sore and my muscles ache plus my lip looks like I had lip injections gone wrong. I guess it is what it is. I walked out of my slip on shoe and it tripped me. Maybe if I hadn't been holding a broom at the time I would have come out unscathed. I got a lot of funny looks at church on Sunday. Most of the women wanted to talk to me but the guys avoided me like the plague. 

I actually wondered if Deacon was avoiding me for a different reason entirely. I mean, if he is reading this he might be seething at this point. My dad would call that feeling “wanting to knock me into next week.” I kind of understand the concept. Like I said previously, it is a talent I have. People avoiding me is a whole thing in my life. Ask Jax, it works for him.

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Author’s note:

FYI, if anyone is interested in brainstorming with me about all these Greek and Roman gods and goddesses, I would like someone to bounce ideas off of. Send me an email at tonispywriter@gmail.com

Diary Entry 18 - Redefining Things

 

Diary Entry 18 - Redefining Things

I discovered another disconcerting thing about myself. I tend to ask random questions when consulting Mr Pendulum. I had noticed how he would say, One Source says this or One Source says that. And it got me recalling a few chapters back how Apollo had acquired the name "One Source". So I decided to ask about THE GOD, the one of the Bible and what did he want to be called? I expected it to say One Source because this is the benevolent god I have come to know. Oh, no. That wasn’t the name. KInda freaked me out, to be honest. The answer came back Draco! Uh, what? How can that be true. I swear I about fell out of my seat on the couch. In case you aren’t aware, the Dracos are Reptilian extraterrestrials. There is a theory out there that they seeded the earth with humans at some point in the past.

Mr. Pendulum just clarified that THE God is definitely One Source. Whew! Apparently, the God of Earth is Draco. That is weird and disconcerting all at the same time and really makes this whole SRA thing make a lot more sense. I also asked if these Draco were still on Earth since I have heard that the White Hats are driving them out in droves. The answer was: “Some. Final Days, though.”

That is really crazy. So many entities think they are “God” so when you are praying you really need to be intentional. You need to pray to the right God and not just the convenient God who will give you what you want. THE God gives you what you need even if you don’t see that you need it. It wouldn’t be good to pray to Gods who don’t have your best intentions at heart. It’s no wonder this world has seen so much trouble. We are all just confused fools who don’t see how we are being manipulated every day. Sigh. It is such a mind suck.

I also discovered that some words are not defined correctly. For instance, you think you know what devil means, right? According to Mr. Pendulum, it really means “sailing vessel.” I guess that makes sense since we have been under maritime law for so long on this planet.

Mr. Pendulum sometimes gets on his soap box and spews a few facts. He said rotten deities have turned fame into a point of ascension. I was curious and asked who the rotten deities were. The answer was Vesta and Satan. I thought that was odd. They named Vesta *before* Satan as if Satan was Vesta’s henchman and not the other way around. Interesting. It gives a whole new take on what evil element is really in charge on this planet, or think they are in charge. Is Vesta the Big Bad, as Buffy the Vampire Slayer would have deemed this demonic in charge type of person? Is that not crazy stuff right there?

Sometimes Mr. Pendulum likes to confuse me. Not that I am not confused enough without his influence but that is neither here nor there. I have received guidance in the past that Vesta is really my sister. This whole galactic destiny thing kinda gets on my nerves after a while. But not only is Andra (that’s my sister) Vesta but also Hera and Sona (the rapper). I guess I should have taken y’all’s advice and kicked Sona to the curb earlier in the story. Sheesh. I guess this is like the Devil’s version of three-in-one? Kind of like a mirror to the Father-Son-Holy Ghost dynamic in the bible. I feel like this is just getting much too deep for me. No wonder they are called the Deep State, they are all standing in deep do-do and hope we all don’t smell them coming. These Deep State people give me brain freeze.

I am going to jump to another topic. I dreamed of my mom the other night. I have come to the conclusion that Mom is Minerva and not Athena. Athena is the Greek version of Minerva, goddess of wisdom. Her sister is Pomona, also a Roman goddess, but she doesn’t have a Greek counterpart. Interesting, but they sometimes see her as Demeter, though. Funny how these two pantheons keep intersecting each other. It’s like they are two sides of the same galactic coin or something. This whole back and forth dynamic between the Gods is just a mind boggler. Anyway, mom, I saw her in a dream. I was singing on some worship team in a venue I would not normally be at. After the singing was over, I was walking through a diner. Somehow this venue had a dining hall. This is where I saw mom sitting in a booth by herself. And in case you aren’t keeping up, my mother died last year during the lockdowns.

She was very surprised to see me. Probably as surprised as I was to see her. Her response was, “What are you doing here?” I expected a hug or an announcement of love, but no. “What are you doing here,” is what I get.

She looked good. Really good. She was wearing a barely noticeable breathing tube and looked like she had lost some weight. Her nose seemed flatter than I remembered it and I wondered if she had a nose job. It looked like it might still be healing. I didn’t think about this until later but she fell on her face when she had the aneurysm and probably broke her nose in the process. So the irregularity made sense. Funny how dreams are creepy and accurate like that.

She really didn’t stay to talk. Seemed almost afraid to be seen with me. I tried to tell her things, you know… stuff. How I loved her and missed her. I had a whole year of current events to go over with her. But she rushed away and was gone before I knew it.

I spoke to Mr. Pendulum about it the next morning and he went into this whole diatribe about Nikola Tesla. Where did that come from? Apparently he and Mom spoke every day. What? Apparently he is truth incarnate too. So is Mom. I learned that she, as Minerva, gave Tesla gifts. Then Nikola himself started talking to me after that. He said, “welcome to proof central.” I guess that means when you are connected to truth incarnate you get the true perspective of things. He says I am in a “troupe of history.” I am in a class of people revealing true history. Then he jokingly says that I am proof Gods exist. Truth incarnate is my destiny and it is revealing advancements to me. Not yet, but I guess it will soon. Exciting.

Nikola was explaining concepts to me to use for practice. He said to see farmland each day and will it to grow. I think this will show people how important our focus is. What is it you really want in your life? Focus on that. Where you put your focus is so important and it has power. We need to realize this and use it for our own good and not for the good of the Deep State. They use this same concept through tv. The media bombards us with hours upon hours of 911 coverage, C19 numbers, anything that will scare us (think Monsters, Inc.) and they use this focusing power to convince us to manifest things they want or want to occur.

Nikola warned me that my room was spellcast. I have heard in the past there is a portal in there so that must be the same thing. He said that the Powers That Be see me. It points to me seeing the truth everywhere. Nikola says he has a late model healing machine soon to be revealed. (Late model is better than the newer model, whatever that means.)

I forgot to mention that I have been getting tarot messages about Trump now. Odd. Never got those before.Out of nowhere I am getting messages about him. Must be a reason for it. I guess we better get ready because according to the cards, THE SECRET IS OUT AND READY TO BE REVEALED!

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Author’s note:

FYI, if anyone is interested in brainstorming with me about all these Greek and Roman gods and goddesses, I would like someone to bounce ideas off of. Send me an email at tonispywriter@gmail.com