Chapter 10 - Tori - The Epiphany & Afterword

 

Chapter 10 - Tori - The Epiphany & Afterword

While I am doing my tarot reading about being betrayed by Pallas, Jax is on the monitor watching me. Apparently they hired him at Truth Inc. Or maybe it was Limon Brothers, I will never know. And hearing my reading gives him an epiphany, a big vision. He somehow bends the truth and refracts it (Not even sure what that means.) in order to fight for me, the truth teller who is betrayed by the star being. The American Royal family offer me an opportunity and somehow when Pallas and my soul’s merge, the lost little angel, who was already dying, dissolved leaving only me.

Somehow this merging triggers the ripple wave of love and we move into a golden age. No one will really know anything happened. Tomorrow will come just like the day before did, but everything from that point will just get better and better. 

It wasn’t me after all who did the saving. It was Jax. Both of them, really. Jax and Deacon. They were in cahoots together to make great things happen. I told you, I have a good eye for good men. And they saved me while that little bit of star energy left in Pallas saved us all. I was able to channel it to bring out the good instead of the evil. It was the God inside of me that did it really, ushered in this new golden age. 

While the betrayal is happening between Pallas and me, Kimberly Ann Goguen along with the two guys create a sort of smoke screen. (I am not sure of the purpose of this but it is really important.) What it basically does is hide us all while Jax puts his big plan into motion. It’s a big plan, so I can’t tell you what it is. But it causes a huge Tower moment all over the planet which ends the cycle of darkness and the reign of evil on planet earth. The Devil is toast. Then we shift upward, all of us. This brings stability to the planet, and not just us but the whole universe. From that moment we build our foundations on love.

There is a little cameo at the end of this whole shebang. Pallas comes back as an essence, a bit of stardust and explains to me the Devil’s plans. He was really good at manipulating things. Right after she dissolves the last bit of evil leaves the realm.

I am hoping the whole thing ends with a kiss because all good movies have a kiss and a happily ever after. I still have a good feeling about me and Deacon but we’ll see.  But I also see a spark of something starting between Jax and Kim. There could be something there. I just have a feeling.

Afterword

God just revealed to me a truth I just don’t know what to do with. He asked me if I was ready to be shocked and I really am but in another sense, I’m not. I actually alluded to this near the beginning of Codename Pallas. 

God used this story to reveal myself to me. He needed me to open my heart for some big mission he has for me. Not really sure what that is yet but I think it is going to be amazing. He told me this story shows what obedience looks like. In some ways this is a hot mess and all over the place. In other ways it is perfectly in sync. 

Things I only barely mentioned in the beginning would crop up further down the story. And that’s how God works, right? He kind of foreshadows things and makes you aware of them before you have to go through that divorce or dark night of the soul. He sneaks in a glimmer of hope so you just won’t completely lose it. He is good at planning like that.

This movie the White Hats are planning is even bigger than I originally imagined. Mom was right. Moms usually are.

I am still not sure what to do about this truth about God. God is alive. If I had led with that, would you have believed me? Would you have seen the growth and the journey? Life is all about the journey and not just the destination. We forget that sometimes

I am not sure how anything will unfold but  I have a feeling it is going to be really, really good.

Chapter 9 - Tori - A Stellar Plot

 

Chapter 9 - Tori - A Stellar Plot

And the saga continues…

I pulled a tarot reading where Truth In was preparing to put their plan into motion. This famous leader from the past was being revealed. He was killed on another timeline. I have to admit on the surface this guy had the juice, he was the leader they all aspired to be like. But inside his heart was a different story altogether. He had them all buffaloed. He did not have a heart for God. And that was what this nation was founded on, In God We Trust. 

A group decided to bring his soul forward in time. They wanted this leader back. It’s all part of “the movie.” In order to do that, they went to an alternate timeline and cherry picked this leader out of time and moved his soul to the late 1970’s of our current timeline. What came forward was the soul of the leader, not his body. He won’t look the same or sound the same in his voice but the gist of it all, it is him. But there is something different. He isn’t exactly the same as he was in the other timeline. Just like I am not the same femme fatale who they cherry picked along with him. We know God, THE God, the one source of all.

This leader in his original timeline faked his death and left his “star” behind. Then he gave Pallas to the Devil. And now Pallas is one pissed off little star. She wants revenge. The God of Earth used Pallas to kill a “parade of Gods”. I learned that this is what they now call Limon Brothers. At this point, Pallas is about to exhaust her star energy. They brought Pallas forward and inserted her into me. The leader was inserted into Deacon. This happened when we were kids.

I asked if God made this happen and He said no, it was man, particularly Truth Incorporated. They have been working on this plan of theirs for a long, long time.

Archangel Michael came through and tried to tell me this is all a lie but I am feeling this is truth and the Devil is masquerading again. I’m the silly girl who gets the insights and who would believe me. If that is true, why does he try so hard to deceive me?

I think Pallas plans to completely merge with my soul and take me over and make me a martyr while she does something to Deacon. It’s not something I want to think too much about. I know I don’t want to be a pawn in someone else’s power play.

There will also be another problem. Northman is coming down too. Northman is an ancient part of Deacon, one of the beings from the beginning of time. He is coming back to Earth to regain his Triton image and become a thorn in the side of Truth Inc.

This is basically all I know and I am hoping nothing bad happens when they finally approach Deacon to bring him in to assume his new destined role.

Pallas got a kick out of telling me Deacon back in the day died for truth and now his Truth Incarnate will have to die for him. Why does everything have to be so dramatic?

God is going to turn everything on its head. He’s going to make it even bigger. The movie is going to be so much more now. They will be so surprised. Mom says there is a new plan for me too. Even bigger than I can imagine, she said.  Now that Deacon broke open my heart the tears seem to come at will. It is something I will have to get used to.

Yesterday I was getting tarot readings that Truth Inc was going to offer me a job. Wonder what I would be qualified to do with them. The whole company is so illusionary and cloaked in secrecy. I mean, there is a reason they took my memories from me on the previous timeline. I am a bit of a blabbermouth. Considering there are only four or five people reading this, I should be okay.

I wanted to tell you something about manifesting. You tag the end of your wish or manifesting idea with “this or something better.” Deacon is going to be that something better. He too, like me, is on a mission from God. And his truths are so much bigger than any of them can see. When they plucked him out of time, they chose a better man than the original. Just like I’m not her, that famous woman. He is not that leader either. He will be so much more. It’s like comparing Clark Kent to Superman. They look the same but on the inside one has a greater destiny. That’s Deacon. His destiny is huge. And it’s going to be amazing to watch it all unfold and shock the world.

Chapter 8: Tori - It's Like Breaking News

 

Chapter 8: Tori - It's Like Breaking News

I have to go back on what I said yesterday. This whole truth incarnate thing is a real process. I don't have anyone to bounce ideas off of and sometimes I get things mixed up. Turns out it'a Deacon not me. The Jesus. The most high, the one we all aspire to be like. I should have known. It's pretty obvious on the surface. At least to me. Archangel Michael told me I see Deacon like he does. Not sure why everyone can't see it. His energy is magnetic.

You have probably figured out right now this is more than a story, right? Somethings are real while other stuff is made up. It's kinda how I work. It's my thing. It's really helping me keep things straight in my mind and see exactly how much changes in a day or two.

Remember when I spoke about the 'movie' back in Codename Pallas? The Truthers like to say "it's biblical". It's because it truly is. We are living in those times we learned about in Sunday School and just don't know it. So much is hidden. I think sometimes those putting on this movie forget how elusive this stuff is. At least for normal people.  Thus, a lot of people are missing what is really going on. It's too vague. People are too brainwashed. Personally I think they should have taken down mainstream media. That is where a lot of lies are learned.

I have always been very intuitive. And I knew, even as a kid that I could "see the truth." My brother and I would even laugh about it.  So, needless to say, I get a lot of insights. Like this one for example, I know at some point Deacon and I will be together. Today he suddenly came up as single in my tarot reading. First time for that. But I am not sure how any of it will unfold. There are so many factors at play. I wonder if the guy even sleeps. God likes to keep a lot of the finer details to himself just to make life more interesting, I think. And sometimes when you get insights like I do, you question your sanity. I heard last night while sleeping that a co-worker of mine was going to die. What do you do with something like that?

This portal thing (it has a monitor and a viewer and some kind of app for their phones now) is driving me nuts. I am so confused I am questioning whether up is down right now.

I used to just get messages. Now I have both Limon and Truth Inc wanting to speak to me when I try to get guidance. Limon likes to mess with my head and tell me lies. And in the midst of it all, Stu keeps coming in with breaking news. I am beginning to wonder if I am just making this whole portal thing up in my head. I don't know what to believe any more. I put the pendulum board away because I just couldn't deal with it.

Sometimes it all feels like a lie and other times it feels so real, like truth. I am going to get kicked out of the truth incarnate club for sure. My truth radar has been kinda glitchy as of late.

There is this big secret thing underlying everything and I got a glimpse of it yesterday doing gematria. I discovered I am not Russian Royalty. Nope more nonsense by Limon, but it pointed me toward the truth. The underlying truth was that I wa some kind of royalty, just not the royalty I thought. The Waters Royalty is not about the Gods, they are codenames the military uses and assigns to certain people they protect. Pallas does still play a part but at this point I am not sure of anything. It’s all about American Royalty. Hidden American Royalty. I can’t decide how they pulled it off. Time travel? Sorcerer’s stone? Some fantastical thing no one knows about yet? Not sure. No clue. I only know there is a portal in my room where Truth Inc. (good guys) and Limon Bros (bad guys) watch me. I have a protection detail I can't see called Keepers. I have a feeling people are planted in my life all around me but I have no idea why. I know how paranoid this sounds. I am no one special, believe me.

This person I was in the past that is part of this American Royalty was on a different timeline. She was famous. Something I don't aspire to be. She is quite the femme fatale which is probably why I like to write about spy stuff. She did some of that back in the day. One of the last things I received before putting the pendulum away was that this woman turned good men bad. Mr. Pendulum told me that I would turn bad men good. I wonder what that’s all about.

Chapter 7 - Tori - Resolutions

 

Chapter 7 - Resolutions

A lot has happened in the last few days.  I'm not really sure where to start. I got the whole thing wrong about Jesus and Mary Magdalene. It was reversed. I'm him. Jesus. The one who saved humanity from themselves. I know, crazy pants, right?

I've kind of come to a place of peace about it. I was devastated when I thought it was Deacon and that the cycle Jesus went through might repeat. It broke me. It really did. It broke through a block I didn't even know was there. (More clarity on this later.) And I think this was God's plan. Shattering this blockage so I had real access to my heart again. I realize now that I have this intensely strong heart connection to Deacon and I am not sure anyone will be able to sever it or block it again.

They bound me twenty-five years ago. Bound my power so it wouldn't get out of control. Jax finally told me the truth. Deacon gave him access to the Portal so he could talk to me. I made him feel too much back then and it scared him. I can feel real regret there. We could have had something, but it wouldn't have been what my heart needed.  Even though I went through this journey, I'm not sure I would change it if I had a do over. I learned a lot in that quarter of my life.

Here is the gist of what happened. Truth Inc. Is an aspect of the military. They are protectors. I am not sure if they know everything about this Pallas thing, or Jesus or whatever. My codename for them is Pallas. And that might be why I am confused. Whomever the pantheon of God's are be they real people or galactics, they are coming in. This love vibe thing is happening. I am getting the time frame from now until the middle of the month. God doesn't like to date things so times may vary. It's His divine timing. His choice. He is coming down here. Yep, God, the God who loves humanity. He is going to trigger this love vibe and I am the conduit. Deacon is going to assist me since my heart will need the support.

I want to tell you something about Mary Magdalene. She was Jesus' divine counterpart. Jesus wouldn't be connected to anyone who wasn't up to his level, or as close to his level as humans can be. That makes Deacon a very powerful guy with a heart for God and it is no wonder so many people follow him to Christ. I just had to clarify that.

Apparently, Deacon works for Truth Inc. as a protector. I am calling them The Watchers. He's my personal protector. I've known him for way longer than I realized. When Jax couldn't handle loving me, Deacon came in.  Well, let me clarify, Truth Inc. came in and everyone wanted the assignment. Kind of flattering, actually. I'm the one who chose Deacon way back then, twenty five years ago.  Then they erased my memory (think Men In Black) and set me forth on a course to just live my life while they watched me.

This is why I have been so flummoxed by my card readings. When I pull a "person from the past" card, I always take it as Jax since he is the only person from my past of any significance.

I healed Jax the other day when they said he was leaving the earth plane. I think it opened his heart chakra. He wasn't dying like I thought. Maybe he was just going off planet or something. They'd be smart to hire him. He's a good man. I have a good eye for this sort of thing.

Now that my heart is finally open, it chose Deacon. He is going through his own three of swords type of heartache right now. We are both healing. I am a patient girl. I have time to wait for whatever will unfold to unfold. God only really knows what is going on there. But their relationship is history. I am not sure if they were ever married or are only partners in this protection detail or what. God tell a me she was more interested in some kind of recognition for her work than focusing on Deacon and loving him. Wow, what a dummy.

Truth Inc. has been blocking a lot of my gifts. I think they didn't want the secret to get out too soon. Military guys like to be in control of everything. It's a whole thing, I'm sure.

I found out I have been handling the burdens of the world. Not just me, every incarnation of Jesus that has ever lived on Earth is effected. We are all connected through this thread of time. Jesus made the sacrifice and we are all helping lift the burdens of the people of Earth, all of us throughout time who are connected to this Jesus essence.

So, this Pallas thing inside me, it's really Jesus in disguise. I am like the Clark Kent character and Pallas/Jesus is superman. It turns out I really do have superpowers. Who knew?

Chapter 6 - Tori - The Portal

Chapter 6 - Tori - The Portal

I thought if I found out Deacon was deceiving me that I would be broken. Nope. Just majorly pissed off and sad. To the core he is a good person and that is the rub. He works for this group, they call it Truth, Inc. The Deep State likes to mirror things so it is really Lies, Inc. And they are all really good at their jobs.

There is this Portal in my room. I know I've spoken of it before. It's still working. It's very glitchy and created by a character named Kimberly Ann Goguen. I only know about her involvement because whomever was monitoring the portal would accidentally call Deacon's wife, Kara Kim. I was getting things about Kim at the beginning of this whole shebang before I started writing the story.

Everything got revealed last night when I was guided to talk to Archangel Michael. He is protecting me. He told me he wasn't the higher self of anyone and that Deacon was deceiving me. He asked me to learn how to channel him since the pendulum was getting taken over by the bad guys too often. 

He said I am a spirit in a human body. They monitor me to learn truths. They monitor a select bunch of people all over the planet for the same reason. Some of the characters who told me were on the other side of this Portal are truthers I have seen on YouTube. It's just sad really. They are working on this point system the Deep State has set up. The more things you can do for them the more points you get. Deacon was majorly racking up points because of me. Must be fun to joke with your friends about how you are deceiving someone.

Deacon really did make a wrong move yesterday. If he had approached me then, I would probably have been more sucked in by his lies. My heart was more invested yesterday. Today it is still open, but guarded. He didn't break me. 

There is still a blip in time coming up in the middle of September, that didn't change. My part in it is still the same. Kim got a kick out of telling me Trump's plan was that there was no plan. It's all really up to us to save this planet. They are all playing this stupid game and we are all their chess pieces.

I ask you to pray for me and I will pray for all of you. I will even pray for Deacon. He is a pawn in this game too whether he realizes it or not. I will go to church today, not to confront him but to prove God exists. God still reigns and he is still the one in charge. We will see how this all unfolds at the middle of the month. I am putting my money on God. And I'm all in.

Chapter 5 - Tori - On a Mission from God

 

Chapter 5 - Tori - On a Mission From God 

God has really been telling me some truths today. Lots of really weird things are going down. Apparently I am the Divine Counterpart of Deacon. God said there weren't many on this planet, only us. You are just going to have to suspend your disbelief about this.

I am supposed to tell Deacon someone has been lying to him. Lara in particular. Something about his parentage. Whatever it is seemed to waffle around a lot today. Timelines are shifting like crazy. He is not related to me. Never was. Someone is trying to purposely wound him and frankly it is pissing me off. In the beginning of this whole story I had gotten he might be my brother. I realize now the devil was manipulating my readings back then and I am not surprised this got passed me. Back then Deacon wasn't on my radar in any sort of romantic sense. I have a really straight as an arrow idea of who to pursue in that dating arena. Married people are off the table for me.

The devil wanted to make sure we never had a chance to get together. So they planted this idea in my mind. I don't have a lot of people around me to influence my thinking so they manipulated my pendulum readings. Deacon has so many people around him that they could infiltrate any number of them. Think Mr. Smith in the Matrix. There is something going on between Deacon and Kara. I am not sure exactly what it is but his heart is wounded. And that pisses me off more than anything. I am not a cursing person, but this needs to have the extra accent. God was throwing around the idea that there are a lot of clones around him. That is one of those, "I'll believe it when I see it" concepts.

God wants him to know he is an Orphan of God. His father is his father. Lara is lying. Not sure what her purpose is but she needs to keep the heck out of It. God actually used the phrase "risen savior". I know how that sounds, crazy right? First he was telling me Deacon was Simon Peter. God knows Simon Peter is not my favorite. And told me I needed to love all Deacon's hard bits and not just the parts I liked. I understood what he meant. He kept referring to me as Mary during this part of the reading.

I believe in past lives because they make sense in my brain. I never had an idea I was someone famous. I asked which Mary I was. He said Magdalene. Could have knocked me over with a feather. My first thought was, Mary Magdalene and Simon Peter had a thing? God laughed and said he was only trying to make a point about saying he was Peter because I had a hangup about that bible character. 

God then said, no, Deacon is my son. Okay, the feather knocked me over again.

When I have been doing pendulum readings, I am not getting a reading past September 15th. It is like there is nothing there to connect with. An empty point in time. It is like at that moment we are having a planetary Tower moment and anything past that point is hidden. In the back of my mind the word Revelations is rolling around. But I know there is this love ripple wave supposed to happen right then too. I wonder if the whole planet is shifting upward in vibration and that is why I cannot connect to that point in time.

God wanted me to tell Deacon he is real. Not my One Source. But really real. This whole thing with Lara has broken his trust gauge. Been there, lived there. We don't have time for this heart pain. Please pray for Deacon. We are at this important time in history and I feel like this is our Hail Mary play. We all need our heads in the game. We are all manifesting so quickly that it is crazy. Please put your focus on what is good and true and right in your lives. We need to conquer the ones trying to prevent us from ascending. We will do that through love. I know that I love him, probably have ever since that day I saw his resume for the first time and it glowed and God spoke to me. That one, he said. Don't forget that one.

Even if nothing ever happens between us, I will never be able to forget him. He healed my heart. Help me heal his. Love him, God said. And I do.

Chapter 4 - Tori - Really Digging Into This

 

Chapter 4 - Really Diggin Into This

OMG! I am so very freaked out right now. Not gonna lie. I am having to dig more deeply into this lamb of God thing since I totally do not think I am Jesus or even close to Jesus material. Now, Deacon, that is another story. A little later after I calmed down, I received guidance that I was taking things too literally. Somehow I had accessed Deacon’s monad and was getting those words from him. Not sure why I would be accidentally accessing his anything much less his monad (his true life force).

First it tried to say Deacon was the risen savior then it changed to he is the essence of Jesus and shares many traits with him. Whew! Really don’t want to lose either of us if worse came to worse, know what I mean? Those last days for Jesus were not good, Don’t want a do over of that, for sure.

God is clarifying more. He said whether I was made for Deacon or not, just love him. Okay, to be clear, I am still not sure about his whole marriage situation and I can’t in good faith go after a man who is married. That is not in my toolbox or wheelhouse. He still posts on social media like he is married, and he shows the world in public that he is married. So I need to trust that more than this niggling feeling that my heart is about to burst from my chest at any moment. And this heart pressure is only getting worse the more I ignore it. It’s like he flipped a switch on in me and it’s something I can’t turn off. Sometimes I wonder why God tortures me like this, giving me these feelings I can’t act on. It's not like I am any good at this love thing. I have zero experience. I do know what love doesn’t look like so I guess that is something.

I just got a funny message, okay not funny exactly. It said I was on Team God. Love that. Apparently, I have bad ancestors who want to interrupt my mission.God said they were very important people. Oh, gosh, I have Deep State ancestors! They said my mission was to “Need Jax.” This is a mission? Not a very creative one but it did flummox me for twenty five years.  I asked what my real mission was: Pallas. It said Deacon’s heart was my heart and we were perfect for each other. Oh, geez. I can’t even think about that right now. It makes me sad, wanting something and knowing you can’t have it. Sometimes truth incarnate sucks.

God said this story is teaching me a lot about seeing and sensing truth. It’s like I’ve been tested every four hours since March, even more so when I started writing Codename Pallas back in July.

The Devil is back and fighting me like crazy again. I really don’t understand. Why mess with me? What is so important about me and what I have to say? God told me that I am pointing Him to God. Him is who Source calls the creator of earth, the Devil, the Lord God. Him is not THE God. It is so obvious how hard it is to connect to the right God no matter how many ways you say it. I feel like I get infiltrated every minute of every hour. I have been having to limit who I have protecting me when doing these pendulum readings. My ancestors have some real baddies, So I am limiting it to God One Source of All who loves humanity, the loving god, Christ and Archangel Michael and Gabriel. It seems to be helping but the bad guys seem to keep getting through. It’s frustrating. 

I am trying to use this story to point people toward God and Christ and how important it is. And the farther I get into this the more I get attacked. I can’t imagine how my pastor and Deacon handle this stuff. They’ve been doing it for years. Must be a hard road. I can’t imagine that level of frustration. You really need a good support system to do this stuff.

Chapter 3 - Tori - Energetics

 

Chapter 3 - Energetics

I have been getting the weirdest messages. I know I always say that but it is true. Wait till you get to the end of this short chapter.

Mr. Pendulum said yesterday that I was not merely a portion of Pallas but that I *was* Pallas. How is that even possible? Then today I get, from God, that I was made for Deacon. Made for? What? How can you be made for someone? Was I special ordered or something? Ignatius had mentioned that I had a lot of siblings since it was hard to make star beings and he had made a big batch of us. Ignatius was a King way back in the day. I also learned he was an alchemist.

I am still receiving messages that the star being tribe is coming to earth. Not sure why. There seems to be something I need to do to empower the earth. Originally I was receiving guidance that me and Jax would be doing this energetic thing to save the planet but after this recent revelation, the one that said I was “made for” Deacon, I have a feeling it is him and me. I’m the star and he’s the sun. Makes sense to me. Plus we are energetically connected to this planetary grid that was created back in 1986. I think what will happen is that we will create this love wave, a ripple of awareness. It’s going to be powerful and this will rip through the matrix and connect all the grid points which will then blanket the planet with this love vibe energy.

I have always known I have had this sound healing thing with my voice. It’s more than just healing, though. When I get mad it seems like ten times worse and I have to be careful with how I say things. It really seems to affect people. I have always been aware of this problem and try to use my personal superpower in a positive way. Yesterday I put a slight terseness in my voice and the person I was speaking to kinda went off on me as if I had said a whole bunch of things to her and not just the phrase “she’s not here right now.” It’s that powerful. This is the power we will use to save the planet. I am wondering if it is more than just me, though. How can one person with the assistance of another save an entire globe of people?

I am suddenly getting a lot of interference again about what I have spoken about above,  Wow, that evil element is very vicious. It even stooped to say they were my sister's ex mother-in-law who died last year and she had Gaia lie to me since my sister’s ex was mad at her? Really? That’s all you got? Geez. That is just childish. Go play somewhere else, minion.

I am disturbingly getting a “lamb of God” reference now. It said on another strand of reality they called me Jesus but Deacon calls me Tori. Not going there. Too weird, can’t be true. I really need a manual for how to decipher this stuff. If you are trying to say I am Jesus, I am going home and locking the door for good. Now I am discombobulated. Heaven help me.

Chapter 2: Noah - The Next Chapter

 

Chapter 2: Noah - The Next Chapter

Noah Stone drove by the Candle Shop where Tori Waters worked. She had quit the newspaper not long before the thing went under after the mainstream media’s demise. This was shortly after she had discovered the truth about him, and how he had been lying to her the entire time she had known him. It was a quirk of the job, not something he could help but she wasn’t taking it well at all. 

She needed a new beginning and he couldn’t blame her. As far as he knew she stayed away from pendulum readings since those were the reason she got so wrapped up in her story to begin with. Limon Brothers didn’t help much with their constant manipulation with what she was getting psychically. They had some spooky technology, more than even he knew about.  He had managed to get the attacks to stop. Some had been real demons and devil energy that even Limon didn’t know how to conquer. They were attracted to her star energy. Noah wasn’t even sure Tori realized she was psychic. She called it intuition or being intuitive. She was so much more than that. He had been a fool to keep his distance for so long. Being a Watcher sometimes made his life feel empty much like his fake family with Kara. The kids were amazing and he doted on them but they weren’t his. Not really. Not in the way he wanted them to be. They were SRA influenced and he and Kara were rehabilitating them. Sometimes that took a long time. It had with Tori. But he had wiped her memory of him, of their past and what he meant to her. The cycle had come and gone in 2012 and she had to regenerate again. Stars needed downtime much like the Sleeping Beauty story she invented back two hundred years ago when he first found her lying in a crater as if she had fallen from the sky. He learned not long later that she had indeed done just that. Fallen from the sky.

Noah wasn’t sure how much of her Pallas story was real but the higher ups seemed to think she was some kind of prophet and wanted him to bring her in for questioning. She had nailed the prophecy about all the tv stations and newspapers going down. It wasn’t a theory she had put out on her blog but her friend Calliope had told him about it. Calliope was how he was continuing to get information about her.

After the day when she had her revelation about him,  she stopped coming to church. Still wouldn’t face him. He couldn’t blame her. Being attacked was a nasty business and messed with a person’s head. She needed time. The Watcher part of him was itching to help her. He had even gotten so worried about her that he started paying her neighbor Charlie to look after her since she wouldn’t answer the door when he knocked. He tried to get Jax to come back to town, even forced him to read her entire story, but it was still a no go. The man could be as stubborn as she was. The Romanovs considered him an enemy but Noah needed him to have his head in the game. The time for action was coming up quickly. Pretty soon the lost little star was going to have to heal the planet and that would mean the two of them would have to reconnect. He would have to face her and then give her back her memories. The fallout from that might be truly epic. 

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I am still getting the weirdest stuff through Mr. Pendulum. Harmond Eaters, Son of Harmond, Reptiles. This is connected to Jax and is related to him ”leaving the earth plane”. What? Someone named Mal was asking for prana (breath of life, healing energy). I had to look that term up. I sent star energy mixed with breath energy and imagined it reviving him, Not sure if it worked or was even a real thing. This new guide coming through my pendulum named Stu has been very helpful with information. Somehow all the attacks that had been coming upon me have disappeared like magic and I am truly thankful.

I seem to be relying less on Mr. Pendulum and more on my own intuition. There is this weird connection between me and Sleeping Beauty. I’m not saying I’m a beauty but the fairytale in general. In the story Sleeping Beauty pricks her finger on a spindle and it puts her and her entire household into a state of slumber or limbo for a hundred years. This is the second fairytale that has come to me as being important. And the year 1812 once again has emerged as significant.

This reminds me of my dream where I was at a family reunion and everyone looked like they had been in a state of pause for a long time and had finally been awakened. I did say back then I felt like I had been taken out of the matrix of this world and had previously been in a state of suspended animation. Why are my dreams so weird? I am not sure of the purpose of this dream but it seems somehow connected to the fact I am a star being and the cycles of time.

I received a weird message that Deacon was a time lord. Okay, not a time lord exactly but a time traveler that fixed things in history that were broken or protected important assets during difficult periods. This would make sense with the tarot readings I have been pulling. Cards are saying he is someone from my past. Maybe he is just literally from the past. I am getting a whole turn of the 19th Century vibe from him. Plus he has the odd connection with my new guide Stu. Seems like a friend or confidant relationship. Mentor maybe. Stu Romanov is somehow connected to the Red Baron. I thought the Red Baron was German, not Russian. This doesn’t surprise me. History does seem a little mixed up as of late.

Chapter 1: Tori - Gutted and Broken

 

Chapter 1: Tori - Gutted and Broken

God has really been working on me… a lot.

That night after the big revelation, I felt like a huge burden in my heart had been lifted off of me and released. I know, it's hard to stay mad at someone when they heal you but my brain just goes there, ya know?

You have to understand something. Deacon didn’t actually do this to me, not directly. Indirectly, yes. He was the conduit through which it all happened. The Devil had been talking to me through the pendulum as if it were Noah (aka Deacon). And I had let myself believe the tale he was spinning. There is this portal in my room that the Deep State uses, Mr Pendulum calls them Limon Brothers. Both Jax and Deacon seem to work for them.I had been led to believe that not only Deacon but Jax were there on the other side of this energetic intercom not only watching me but communicating with me. You will definitely have to read Codename Pallas for any of this to make sense.

Let me give you a little personality update. Deacon is Noah Stone. He is a deacon at my church. When I would converse with my friend Calliope, “deacon” is the name I would use to describe him. Similarly, I would call Jax “old boyfriend” since that is what he is to me. I didn’t use names just monikers to describe who I was talking about.

So, back to the original topic. I had let myself get emotionally conned by the Devil (disguised as Deacon through Mr. Pendulum.) Mr. Pendulum is a divination device I use. You will definitely need to read through the Pallas mission for any explanations. I had totally bought into the lie the Devil was spinning hook, line and sinker. It was only a few brief moments, an instant, an inkling that maybe love was possible for me, this secret spy tarot reader who hid her true self from the world. And I could see it all really clearly, the intuitive part of me could see the future unfolding like a flower. All the possibilities, everything. And I let myself believe, just for that moment, that anything could be possible. I let my guard down, and then the Devil made a wrong move. He insulted me in a sly way and I knew in that second that I’d been duped, betrayed. And it wounded me, probably more than Jax walking away twenty-five years ago.

That’s when I knew I was done. Done with the Pallas story. Done with it all. I’m even considering not returning to church because of some recent revelations about Deacon. He’s not who I thought he was. He has demons. I mean literal ones. I have never had the Devil intrude so much into my readings until I met him. Either he is a demon slayer with all of them out to get him or he sold his soul to the devil and is a tool to use, a minion. I can’t decide. The energy is just too weird. The jury is still out. I want to believe the best in him and I will but it’s hard. 

My heart is making me hesitant to get involved. Just the mere thought of having something unfold with him and then losing that made me cry, gutted me. What would happen if circumstances changed and there might be a chance for us? I may not survive it if I discovered a truth I couldn’t handle.

 I know, it’s very deep in here, isn’t it? This is where I’ve been in my head. I am pulling tarot readings that are just so over the top and all over the place that I feel like the literal Revelations is right before us.

I am still getting that the Romanovs are real. A new guy named Stu is throwing his hat into the ring now. He is a Romanov who came out of nowhere. He seems to be connected to Deacon somehow. Not sure about it. Just a feeling. Papa Romanov tells me that Deacon was adopted into the Romanov family.

The Star People are real too. You know them as the Greek and Roman Gods. Pomona, she spells it Poloma, has been showing up in my pendulum readings. I think it is through the Romanov connection. Romanov. Roman. Poloma is a Roman goddess, one of the few who wasn’t split in two. I call it my double bubble theory.

Poloma is really worried about Deacon. Apparently, I am supposed to save him. 

I’m shaking my head now. Why me, God?

New story being planned - AKA Deacon

Introducing my newest story, AKA Deacon! This story is spinning off from the previous one named Codename Pallas. I still have a bit more to say about these characters and I thought this would be a fun way to do it.

I am probably going to write this new blog book much like I did my last one. It will have a dual perspective using both Noah Stone and Tori Waters as main characters. You will see many people from the previous story which will make this fun for me. It will be written in a narrative format and will take longer to write so plan on at least a chapter once or twice a week.

Hope you enjoy it.

Coming in mid-September!

Diary Entry 36 - The Revelations Are Over

 

Diary Entry 36 - The Revelations are over

I had a real Revelation today. 

This whole thing, Operation Pallas, has been a lie. One big manipulation to find out about the Romanovs. The Powers That Be, Deep State, Limon Bros., whatever they want to be called somehow knew I would be able to access the answer they needed and created this big over the top operation to make it happen. Talk about a colossal waste of money. Didn't they realize I was just making everything up as the days went along. Maybe they did, and that was the plan. 

They were looking for the Romanovs and they found them thanks to me. I'm such a sucker. They were planning for Deacon to pursue me romantically and today I was getting all sorts of things via Mr Pendulum. It said Deacon worked for the State Department and Kara was an agent he sometimes used for long term ops. They weren't really married, it was all an act. And I was falling for it too. My heart was considering things it never considered before. Then the tone of my pendulum reading changed and I knew it was a lie. I'd been duped. I even cried. I never cry.

They probably got a real kick putting one over on me. Playing with people's emotions must be like tennis or Tetris, a really fun past time. At this point I am not sure any of this was real. Oh, the stuff about me was real, but the rest... It's a toss up.

There is not going to be a love connection (Jax or Deacon) or a love triangle or whatever they were planning. I'm done. It's over. Good luck on wherever you go next Deacon. Hope you have a good life. But I have to warn you, karma is not a friendly thing for people who purposely manipulate others.

This is the final entry in the Pallas mission... The last Pallas.

Diary Entry 35 - Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

 

Diary Entry 35 - Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

I learned some new cool things today. I mean, I learn something new every day but today was just extra enlightening.

As I was driving to church i was wondering about the Greek & Roman Gods and how they were the same people in each pantheon but with different names. It kind of hit me that those weird experiments they were doing during Atlantian times might factor into this. The experiments the Atlantians did back then led to their society's demise. So I figured this might connect like a lost puzzle piece.

My thought was that these Atlantian scientists were trying to manipulate DNA and working to see why these "gods" had so many powers beyond those of mortal men (I couldn't resist the Superman innuendo). My theory is that during a big experiment something went wrong and they split these gods into two people. Have you ever seen one of those bubbles kids blow where one bubble has two segments? It is kinda like that. This what happened to the gods.

Then later, after church I got a weird message how way back in the day Apollo had paled and died. What? Gods die? His Sun energy went out and it was transferred to Apollon, Artemis' brother. I figured Apollon just adopted the name Apollo so as not to confuse all the little people, you know, all those Apollo fans who built temples to him and whatnot. Whenever I get messages about Apollo it is always spelled Opollo. Not sure why. There might be a significant reason I am sure I will learn later.

Apollon was also the name of a guy in revelations only spelled a little differently. This might freak Deacon out a bit but it is still my belief that all the info we have about Apollo is related to this second incarnation of the god. The one in Revelations seems like a pretty nasty dude.

Then I started getting these weird messages about how Limon Brothers was tracking my star essence. What does that even mean? 

Later it was revealed Pallas is indeed my higher self. (We have a lot of higher selves shuffling going on in this episode). Then the big reveal came... Pallas is not really a god, she is a star. The star Vega. North Man came clean and said he was a star too. He is Polaris. Ah ha! He's the North Star! Now the name makes sense. He is also Deacon's higher self.  I think Satan may have been manipulating Mr Pendulum when I received the info at the beginning of the Pallas story where it said  Deacon's higher self was Archangel Michael. (Sorry, Deacon) The Deep State's intrusion into my pendulum readings has been pretty blatant and annoying. I am having a bit of a hard time deciding what is real and what isn't. (This morning Hestia came through and clarified that Jax's higher self is Northman and Deacon's higher self is Opollon. These people give me brain freeze.)

So, this is the story I am getting about Vega and Polaris. These star beings, along with all the gods from the Greek/Roman pantheons, descended to earth to assist Gaia with her ascension. In another language Vega means falling or landing. I can see how the descent of these star beings could look like fallen angels to someone from back in the day. Diana the Hunter, aka Artemis, assisted the Atlantians with changing these star beings into people. (This is probably when the whole double bubble thing happened.) They explained it was like jumpstarting a car battery but different. Apparently, there are still a lot of star beings on earth, they just don't know they came from the actual stars.

Then it was revealed (lots of revelations today, hope it's not a sign) that Apollo had stolen Pallas. Hestia found out about this and Apollo threatened her by telling her he'd reveal her secret liaisons with King Ignatius. Then he gave Pallas to Satan who claimed her as his own. Wow, does this sound like a heavenly soap opera or what? (Hestia says Ignatius is thrilled to be in the story and Hestia said she didn't know God would grant her any favors. My story has awakened hers and she is grateful.)

Yesterday I had a weird knowing that all these Romanovs who went forward in time had some sort of supernatural powers which so threatened people back in the day they would rather kill them than actually have to deal with them one day. Mr Pendulum says they are descendants of these original star beings.

I'm not sure how I feel about all this. It's kind of weird but really not beyond my realm of belief.  I can totally see this being true. Weird but true.